With my eyes half closed, mind totally switched off, im stoning here right in front of my favourite asset grumbling how terrible life was for the past few days. I've been studying really hard, or so i thought, with Hengkai when the sun was at its strongest and brightest, till the moon appears when almost half the population of Singapore are asleep. Day in day out, i've been waking up at 9 or 10am, sometimes 11 to start my race with time, hoping to study as much as i can till about 1 or 2am in the morning. Today is the 5th day.
Sad to say, i havent been studying a lot because there were so many things for me to fully comprehend from scratch. Thanks to not attending lectures and tutorials. CMA and PCA itself can kill me. Seeing Hengkai for the next 10 days, 12 hours in a row kills me even more. LOL. Just kidding lah. On account of our 5 years friendship, including you taking the hassle and forging out money to drive me up and down, to and fro, here and there and ignoring my attitude when i flare up just because i dont understand the concepts instead of flaring with/at me, i shall be nice. I'll wash your dishes and sew your button. Exactly what i've done. LOL. Thanks lah thanks lah.
The thing that kept me going despite this mountain full of stress is love. Somehow an irony, cos its the one thing that made me lose concentration too. It feels good when all the stress whirling and roaming around in your mind, causing you to break down and go bonkers, there's someone out there for me to think of and divert my attention to. And that's not all. The truly wonderful feeling is when you know that anytime of the day or night, that someone is thinking of you just as much.
Sleeping at 3am in the morning and waking up at 9am isnt something nice to do. Yet in the mornings when i wake up, i see a message received from you, i knew my day wouldnt be that bad.
And when my balance sheet cant tally or i cant get the right figure, at that instance when i almost pulled a chunk of hair out or kill myself by gorgeing with MacDonalds, a message received from him melts my heart like totally and feel so much more at ease. That's when i regain my composure and start all over again.
I've many friends who have fallen out of love. Me myself had fallen out of love many times. There were times where i really wanna give up and stop loving guys because im so jaded of getting hurt. Then again, i didnt. I gave love a second chance, many 3 times, 4 times, 5. Never give up on love, cos you'll never know what good it may bring as time passes.
Im glad i didnt, cos now that i found you, life seems a whole lot better. Thanks for making me feel mutual love once again, thanks for loving me for who i am. Thank you my silly one. =)
I've so much more to say, so much to tell you readers how wonderful love can be. Love love, dont hate it. But i gotta start my tedious day of mugging and i dont have much time to waste, so goodbye, i'll be back again.
* yours truly.
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